Yesterday we spent the night at Primary Children's Hospital emergency room. I was getting my hair done last night and I get a panicked call from Matt telling me that Bodee has cut his finger. I asked, "Does it need stitches?" He said he didn't know. I told him to go to the Instacare and I would meet him there to grab the other kids from him. I hurry over to the Instacare with tin foil and color processing in my hair. I got in the car and took one look at my poor little Beaner and almost puked. Apparently he was riding his dirt bike down at the course and was just headed on the straight away. Somehow he tipped it over and cut the top of his thumb off. It wasn't detached but it might as well have been. Matt took him in and the doc took one look and sent us to Primary Children's because he figured it needed to be surgically put back on. After getting Kolt off with my mom we headed down and arrived at the Emergency room where we proceeded to wait for about 3 hours just to be treated. It was a nightmare. All the screaming kids and the bawling babies had my heart just broken. There was some obvious ones that really shouldn't have been at the ER but some literally broke my heart. This was my first ER experience and it was nothing like Greys Anatomy (this is what I had pictured in my mind on the drive down). There was no McDreamy or even a McSteamy. Just a ton of screaming, crying, hurt, tired kids and a lot of pissed off tired parents. We were in the same room as a baby girl who had such a bad broken arm they were calling in all sorts of specialists. Around midnight we finally got an IV in and they FINALLY gave us some pain killers (note this is 5 hours later). An hour after that they tried to sedate him to reattach his finger. He must be a pretty drug resistant little man because he put up quite a fight. There were three of us holding him down and he was still getting the better of the doc doing the suturing. I was a total mess! All I could do was bawl and freak out. I couldn't look at his finger without getting nauseous and light headed. So I was basically a hinderance to the whole procedure. It broke the bone in his thumb completely off and wiped out his whole nail and nail bed. We don't know how well that is going to heal. They put him on some IV antibiotics because it was an open fracture that happened in the dirt. We eventually got everything reattached and were trying to get him out of the anesthesia. We had all of our paper work done and were just about to go home when the vomiting began. They wouldn't let us go because they wanted to monitor him some more. Poor buddy was so traumatized and now he was naked because he had thrown up all over everything. We had no extra anything. We did finally get to leave and got home about 4:30 this morning. He had the dry heaves all the way home and when we got home. But, he finally crashed and slept until about 8 when I am sure his finger was throbbing so hard. I feel so bad for him and it tore me to pieces seeing him in so much pain. I just love him so much I wanted to take away his pain and give it to myself. It is so hard to see your kids hurting and to know that a kiss and a hug aren't going to make anything better. I was so upset last night but in the midst of it I took a look around me and felt so blessed that I was only dealing with this and not something like the little boy that came in with a brain tumor. I felt so lucky and so angry at the same time. I think sometimes I take for granted the simple things like kids that have all of their parts and mental capabilities (for the most part). I am sorry that it took a traumatic experience for me to count my blessings. I will definitely be thinking how lucky we are more often now and I think I am going to make Bodee play the trumpet or something. Can they get hurt playing the trumpet? Sorry for the long post and rambling, I am sleep deprived. We went this morning to fill our prescriptions and I told him he could pick out a toy because he was so brave. Guess what he picked out? A damn motorcycle! Where is the number to the trumpet store?